i had a dream about people throwing zac's name in my face the other day. i awoke from that dream and all i heard that day was "zac this" and "zac that". a co worker actually said that she had faith in "zanessa" and that she hopes you two get back together...
but the thing that got me was later that night, zac inboxed me, asking how we were and such. usually i wouldve ignored him, but i responded out of anger and rubbed it in his face, hoping hed get the message and back up. everytime we have a rough patch, its always ironic for him to pop up and put his nose where it doesnt belong.
its hard dealing with the fact that you dated him. its hard dealing with the fact that your "best friend" still loves you just as much as i do. its hard dealing with the fact that he probably always will. its hard dealing with the fact that he still wants you. its hard dealing with the fact that he hasnt moved on after years. its hard dealing with the fact that i have a big target on my back, painted by him.
i was just reminded by a friend today that while we were broken up, you went back to him and dated him again. reguardless of circumstance, you were honest and straight forward about it.
reguardless of circumstance, im still hurt.
8:35 p.m. - 2011-04-24
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