I'm doing a little bit better than I was in my last entry. I was hurt. I felt burned and I felt like I wasn't good enough. It took a deep conversation with my dad to make me realize how I am and the relationships I keep with people...and how all that ties in to how I view myself. Then that was followed up with my little sister asking me why boys don't find her attractive, although she's gorgeous. I guess we all have our own issues and struggles that we deal with. I�ve made some friends lately and that has got me in better spirits. Some I reconnected with and shared plenty of past memories with. Got closure from Nicole after years of holding in frustration and such. I'm letting go of all that is bothering and is holding me back of moving forward in the next chapter in my life.
I have a brand new phone with an awesome camera and no one to Skype and test it on. Seems to be the theme, but I'm happy with it anyway.
Towson university is reviewing my college application. I'm pretty stoked for that. I'm already imaging how things will go. How things will look like. I kinda regret not going through with my college plans and prolonging it, although my reason was for Vanessa. But now that I'm at this point in my life, its about me now and I really want to prove to myself that I can do it. Its really now or never.....and I've been talking a good game for years. Its about time I put some action behind it.
My lacrosse gig is going great. Will be coaching 7-9 year old kids. Can't wait to get the season started. I decided that I'm not going to play club ball this spring. I'm gonna coach at DHHS and at the YMCA. Should be fun and exciting. I'll still play, of course. Sometimes, you just have to rip a shot 100 MPH at a high school goalie "just to prove a point".
So, that's the update. Haven't really shared much on here now that I've been writing on my tumblr account. But like I've always said, I always gravitate back to diaryland. Always.
"When learning how to trust and who to trust, I'd rather trust the lying devil that I know than the deceitful, convincing devil that I don't know" - Unknown
....how true.
12:05 a.m. - 2012-02-20
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