Alececia and I haven't spoken for several days now.
Its a huge relief to know that I don't have to shape my future plans around someone who is just playing games or isn't really serious. I've been pounding my head against a wall for a few months now trying to figure out just how shit was going to work out...and sadly enough, not getting an answer. I take that as it not being meant to happen. So its back to the "its all about me" life until something else happens or someone else comes along (whenever that will be). Maybe I should better prepare myself, getting my shit ready and in order for when that time does come.
In other news, I'm growing to learn how to be a friend to Vanessa. It's rough- but it's a sign that I am or will eventually have to fully let go of every attachment I have. She's dating and I'm very happy for her.
In other other news, it seems like time is passing me by. I've been so caught up in automatic machine hustle mode that I really haven't had time to evaluate the changes I've made in my life.
Seems like a new self-homework assignment or a new life task.
10:02 a.m. - 2012-10-02
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