both manda panda and vanessa hurt me in their own little ways. I won't really get into why Manda Manda hurt me (story for another time).
So, today on Facebook, my friend Manda panda was giving me complements on a picture I recently posted up. I've never been one to think highly of my looks, so naturally, I played her comments off. But secretly, I needed to hear that. That I'm handsome and someone likes my "brown beautiful eyes" really goes a long way....and earns you major brownie points.
I called vanessa again today, after getting advise from Manda panda. I was all in a lovey dovey mood and just wanted to hear her voice soooooo bad. But when she picked up, she sounded like she was pissed off at me and like I disgust her or some shit. She then said she had nothing to say to me and she hung up the phone. WTF?! I was angry. Like what did I do to deserve all that?
Then I read all my fb status updates. I posted one about not getting as much as I was receiving. And I assume she took it as I was talking about her. I honestly wasn't. I was talking about all the so called "friends" I have and how they aren't there for me nearly as much as I'm there for them. Family included. It angered me how she would assume that and not talk to me first. Maybe its a guilty conscious thing. But I'm not worried about it. I can't control how she acts or thinks. I can't worry about posting something and wondering how she'll respond...
I'm not mad anymore...I just want her to realize that I make general statements and that I do have a life outside of her.
7:55 p.m. - 2010-12-19
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